sick.

i'm not ignoring you all. i'm just sick. stomach flu. it's overstaying its welcome. i don't want to spend the weekend in my bathroom, as nice as it is.

please send good vibes.

until we meet again. you can all do this. you're all amazing. inspiring.

hope for haiti....

It's pretty clear that I'm an emotional eater, I've talked about it on here since day 1. Happy, sad, bored, excited, anxious -- food seems to go well with all of those and then some.

Everyone knows an earthquake hit Haiti last week. It's sad, it's devastating, it's out of control. Now what some people may not know is that I lived in Haiti 10 years ago. I have a host family out there, friends and people that impacted my life more than they will ever know.

There's no way for me to know if my family or friends are ok. I'm heart broken - and it seems that my trusty friend (food) has come in all forms to try and comfort me. As I was laying in bed this morning I realised that food has been there for me since the tragedy hit - but it hasn't helped one bit. Not one single bit. It actually made things worse. I feel gross, I feel like a quitter.

This morning I have cleaned the house, made a menu and a grocery list and wrote in my journal. This morning I'm taking my life back from the tragedy and moving forward. My family and friends would want me to do this.

I can do this. I can overcome anything if I have faith. I don't need food to drown the feelings. It won't get me anywhere (well it'll get me to Addition Elle to buy new jeans that are a size or 2 bigger).

Today, for me, my family and friends I'll start living my life again. My healthy life. Because it's what I can do.

be...

... alive
... patient
... yourself
... present

i received an amazing package in the mail today from one of the people that i look up to the most in my life. mccabe is an inspiration to alot of people - you can find her at www.dancingmermaid.com -- she paints these amazing little rocks that you can find everywhere in my house with their messages of hope.

Today, i was feeling out of sorts... don't get me wrong, I've had a great week with my program but I just wasn't feeling it. I got home and there was this package at my door.

the universe works through people. thank you mccabe for helping me on my journey.